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6:32am

i am devastated...

for the past 5 days i have been working to fix and remodel my home, with little help from anyone, which is fine, i enjoy it emmensly and my hubby works long and weird hours. i have been hanging drywall, mud and taping, painting and even laid carpet in one room, and a good friend did the other room. finally tonight i was able to relax for a while. i put my 2 sons to sleep and after i thought that they were finally sleeping, i jumped in the shower and when i got out my younger son had woke up, and gotten into my purse on the counter and poured an entire bottle of sweet pea hand sanitizer in my fish tank. i was devastated. the water was cloudy and almost white, and already all of my fish looked like they were dead. i grabbed a 44 oz. soda cup, filled it with clean water and begun fishing them out. the only 2 i lost were my dragon fish and a cichlid, draco and corey taylor, but i still cannot believe he did that. the only thing i can think is he has seen me put things in the tank for them and thought he was helping. my little boy felt so bad. he didnt know that he had hurt them and doesnt understand death yet, but i think he does somewhat now. i cleaned the tank immediatly with salt, and all of the things in it, and now the other fish are all okay, i just still feel so terrible. my little boy has never done anything like that before, and i keep things put up and away from him, and i never dreamed he would get into my purse on the high counter, i guess a strap was hanging, and i thought he was sleeping. glad that i dont keep anything else in there, mainly for that reason, i know kids will look for things to mess with, they are kids.