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ILOVEYOUMARY!!
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ok so i have decided to use this journal thing as a real journal
thanks to mary
ok so here it goes
ok so there is this guy
and i can decide if i like him
his name is alex
i have known him since the beginning of last year
he is a grade ahead of me
last year he used to call me and my freinds a threesome
(of lesbians)
even though we aren't
he lives relitively near me but we ahve always gone to different schools
until last year
he is a little shorter than me
about 5'3",5'2"
he has really awesome hair
super soft and thick
he is really nice when he wants to be
he has a younger sister
and he is always getting into trouble
he isnt fat and isnt skinny
he is in a way sensitive
once this girl like hanked out his awesome hair because of something he did
but he didnt deaserve it
and he like cried and i felt so bad
so i hit the girl really hard
o and this is all on the bus
he isnt a virgin
which isnt unheard of for our age
but still surprising
i think he used to like me
until my friend ruined it for me
she just randomly asked him if he liked me while i was standing right there!!
so he would talk 2 me and my friend on the bus
because no one sits with me in the morning so he would sit with me
and we talk and stuff
sometimes he talks about his past (which sounds like hell)
his parents arent together and he lives with his mom
oh he is only in eighth grade
his dad has a new wife which he hates
i think he lies alot though
like once he told me he and his friend set off 200 roman candles at 1 time and hit someone in the head like 15 miles away
yeah right
i think he lies just to get attention
he has ADD and ADHD
and he doesnt take medicine because his mom doesnt know
at least thats what he says
i think he might like me now
he has met my mom
over the summer we had this membership to this pool
and one day he came walking down the hill
i kind of hated him then because that previous school year
he had called me and 2 friends lesbians
but we got to talking
and he looks really good shirtless
even if he is a little fat
but we talked 4 a good hour and a half
just floating in the deep end
it was soooo cool
and my mom thought he was cute
which he is
but just the other day he started to date this girl
her name is jessica
they didnt date 4 long
only 2 days
and while he was dating her i was soo happy 4 him
and then one day he gets on the bus and sits down and tells me he thinks jessica is going ot break up with him
i ask y
he says because she ignores me and never talks to me
which was true
and i said i doubted that would happen though because she isnt one to break up with people
he shruggs
and then we get to talking about something else
somewhere along the line he says
i cant stand to see a girl cry
later after jessica gets off
the girl she sits with says come here
she tells me she wants me or her to break up with alex 4 her
so they broke up
and i felt really bad
like reeeeeeeeeeaaally bad
for like days
i almost cried on the bus but i didnt let him see
i still feel bad for him
even though he isnt sad anymore
at all
this happened last week
they started to date monday night and broke up Wednesday afternoon
of course, jessica said yes but no when he asked he out
meaning yes but she had options
???
so she never really liked him
she was giving him a chance
he had liked her
and still does i think
one of alexs friends had told jessica that alex was just desperate
and jessica called him on it and he said in the most innocent little voice
no im not
alex beat the crap out of that guy because of that
i was on the fence with liking alex while jessica and him were dating
and i wasnt jealous @ all
seriously
i was happy for him
like really happy
i am really missing him over spring break
i have his number and i am thinking about calling
he has mine to
well i have his cell and he has my home number
i need him in my life
but i cant decide if i like him
because if i were to date him it would be weird
we are really good friends
and if we did date
if we brake up it would ruin our friendship
HELP!!!
